I have said before I really have no one to talk to when I am having
issues. I get very irritated. I usually like talking to my mom I know a
few years ago I felt like I could but now I can't, I feel worse when I
do. My mom is kinda close minded or not that she is close minded to
everyone, its OK when her friends are different , but when it happens
with the grand kids or to narrow it down my kids she just don't want to
talk about it or she is so negative and not supportive.
I
need her support so much right now in my life. I have just had the
biggest bomb shell to drop on me in the last 2 weeks its just
unbelievable. I suspected for years that my oldest daughters is a
lesbian. but she had denied it.. I had a talk with her 3 weeks ago she
said she wasn't lesbian nor straight she said she is A sexual she wasn't
interested in any type of sexual relationship.. she don't ever want to
be sexual with anyone that is scares her. Then she tells me a few days
later, she said she is into romantic nonsexual love. I am thinking ok I
can deal with this.. 2 weeks ago she springs on me that she is having
issues with her gender. She says she wants to become a male. She has
been binding her breast for months and when I questioned her about that
she said he hated her large breast. I told her I didn't like it and she
has no idea if its dangerous. Now she is wanting to have her breast
removed. She said that when the surgery is improved she wants to have
the full surgery.
I love this child as much
as you can love someone. I am having issues with this. If it was being
lesbian that is awesome and I can except it. This is something totally
different and I don't know what to think. I am confused she wants me to
call her by a male name and I just can't.. maybe in the future but right
now I can't. Like I was saying before, I tried talking to my mom but
she is like don't she know she is a girl. She don't believe Sarah feels
this way she thinks its people she is hanging out with, I don't know
either way. I am sitting back and seeing whats going on or trying to she
is only 16 so I have no clue what is going on.
So this my life and the wonderful stuff I have to deal with.
