cpt Waynick Kenneth

My brother is been in Iraq for a few months and as any family knows who has or has family over there it is nerve racking. I do think God everyday that it's not as bad as it was, but it's not safe still and people are still being killed. I guess I have such a special place in my heart he is 10 years younger than me. He's my baby.

I remember a few weeks ago in Ramadi where he is stationed some prisoners had escaped, everyone was on lock down after dark. My mom heard this on the news and was in such a huge wreck she attempted to mail Kenneth or find him on line on myspace but he wasn't online. My mom was freaking out. About a day or two after that he emailed my mom and said the prisoners where captured or killed. I hate that is how it had to be, but at the sametime I am relieved.

It's hard when no one hears from him weeks at a time he's not too much into messaging us or emailing any of us.. he says no news is good news.

It is so hard being the stong one in the family. My mom is a mess over him being there.. she isn't the same person being around her sometimes is like walking on egg shells. One minute she is happy the next she will bite your head off. If she is mad at one person we all duck and cover. We have had a tough year or so. My grandmother id in the nursing home as well she isn't doing good and we are told she mmight only make it another couple months. I will go into that much later. I mentioned to her that she might want to go back on her Zoloft while all this is going on, she said I wished you guys would stop bugging me about that.. I guess I am not the olnly one who thinks that.. she gets so mean sometimes I am afraid my dad will leave her. AND my sister Eve she is a train wreck herself.. but the seems to be the one who takes things to heart. I just feel like I have to be strong everyone one don't need to fall apart right now. Believe me I wish I could be alone so I can just let it out I would feel better. I also don't want to let my daughters seem me a mess.

I know my brother will make it home ok. he will be home in 2 or 3 months. Just seeing everyone so depressed just brings me down some. I know some of what I have written may not make since or jumbled.. this is how it is all in my head so that is how it all come out.

I am not a super religious person, but I do pray to god to keep my brother safe and al the other troops fighting for our country and keeping us safe.