Sorry again for not being consistent

To be honest I have been a little down lately and I really haven't felt like posting anything. I am still a bit down but I have excepted the fact there isn't anything to about it!! I have been hunting a job for sometime now. And honestly haven't looked in a month or so I am getting frustrated and burned out on looking. On top of everything I haven't gotten child support from the girls dad in almost 6 weeks and now afraid that I won't be able to get them anything for Christmas or at least what I want to. Mom has bought some jewelry from me and want to buy mom. She isn't actually giving me money just gonna go shopping with me and use her credit card. I do appreciate it, but at the same time she will be breathing down my back and nit picking anything I pick to get them. I am in a Win Lose situation. That is why II haven't Blogged in awhile