Random 5 Crowds

I have been trying to figure out things for me to do to become more sociable.  I am not really in to bars and clubs never really had tons of fun when I went, I think it's a crowd thing I just can't be surrounded by too may people for a long period of time.. I get hot, nervous, paranoid and can't breath,

I work a lot or weird hours so it's not easy to just go out on the weekend.  I want to start getting out and doing stuff.  I have noticed since I am working I don't feel as depressed   i use to.  But I don't have a social life.. I do have friends, but most are married, in a relationship or they life too far away.  I have to start living. It has been so many years since I have felt like I have been living life.  The one thing I need to do is start getting out when someone asked hey do you wanna go so and so with me, I need to do.  It's hard when mom will asked me at midnight let's go get cake and coffee when I have to be up at 10 or earlier to go to work.

I have had people say join a dating sight...umm no!! I don't have to find a date just to have fun. Yes, I am ready to date but on my terms and how I feel comfortable doing it.  People just don't get how picky I have become since my last relationship. My goal is to at least do something once a week if I feel like it or no.  I might go have lunch with mom and her girls tomorrow that's a start anyways.

I know this lame .. but I keep thinking about things to post from the past funny stories.. which I know I have.  I am just not thinking of any off the top of my head. I am sure I can find something.. because I was a pretty weird kid.

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