Day 22

I am still having the worse anxiety problems, I can't explain it. I also have sleep apnea . I don't have one of those wonderful machines. I have had that for while but it never woke me up or freaked me out like the anxiety. I will be lying down watching TV on my bed and I will relax and start gasping for air I get a little tightness as well. I am so afraid to go to sleep with the fear I won't wake up. I am so afraid right now. I lost 5 lbs but that is clearly not enough. I stay hungery.. I try to get something that isn't bad for me, but every once in awhile i stray. I bought Gummy Bears last night those are my weakness, but I think I have had my fill for a while I thought I was gonna puke. My dad bought cookies and I did good I didn't eat one. I think I will drink hot tea with artificial 0 calorie sweeter.  That kinda helps my sweet tooth.

I am in Georgia about 10 miles northwest of Atlanta, We have had some good aweful hot weather today it was 99F with the heat index of 104 F. That is causing many problems with the breathing I know. I am looking for some sort of relief.  We are expecting rain for the next couple days, That will kinda help. I will be happy for a very cloudy over cast day! I guarantee you one thing if I lose enough weight this year I will get me and the kids a pass to White Water. The money will be so worth it.  I wonder about the winter now.. Not always but most of the time when we have a horrible summer that our winter is gonna be cold. Right now I am excited for the cold weather. I just wish it would get here .

Tomorrow will most likely be a late night. I have Sarah's laptop since she is in trouble, but she will be getting it back tomorrow as long as she stops being such a smart mouth. Good Night Until next time!