Day 2

Emma

I am gonna try out something new with my hair I just hope it don't fall out when I am done.. I was gonna start on it tonight but feeling a little lazy right and I don't feel like hearing complaining about hair color in the tub when its not there.  I am 1st gonna color my roots like the rest of my hair.. past time to was the grey out of my hair. The a day or 2 later I am gonna color over it with a red that washes out in so many shampoos.  I hope it turns out.. I also have a protein conditioner I don't know if I should use it before or after I put the red in.

Pride and Prejudiced

Sarah s friend Chelsea spent the night 3 nights mom took her home this after noon and now Heather is over spending the night. I feel bad I haven't let any of Hannah's friends in awhile. Her friends are a bit louder than Sarah's except Chelsea she is Hannah's friend as well and when they are together OMG! they are so loud. I have basically been hanging out in my room for the past couple hours. I just finished watching The Roommate it was OK.. very similar to Single White Female but the girls are in College.  I haven't really seen any super good movies in awhile at least new ones ,, Last weekend I watched Emma I love that movie, Next I wanna see Little Woman. I love movies like that.  The weekend before I watched Pride and Prejudiced. I am a movie nerd I know.
I have watch these among others hundreds of times and still not tired of them.  I always try to get ma daughter to watch them with me but they are only 1/2 interested .

Off to bed soon trip to the dialysis in the morning well to drop Rick off any ways.. I pray I sleep better. I pray I don't wake with such a dry mouth I feel as if I have been eating sand paper or something, Good night to all Sweet Dreams Just think tomorrow is Friday Until them .

Little Woman

                                                                                 

I wanna try to post Everyday for 1 month Day 1 still the 13Th to me

What to blog about I really don't know my life is what it is funny some-days dramatic the next or just boring just like everyone else. Today was pretty uneventful. I woke up this morning at 10:30 am and literally rolled out of bed throw on some clothes on and took my friend Rick to his dialysis appointment.. I  felt like death. I can't blame anyone but myself for the way I felt. Knowing I had to get up I  still stayed awake until 5 am chatting with the kids and my brother.  I was happy to get home I was starving and made an egg, bacon and cheese bagel then I crashed until 2:30 pm I am such a lazy ass.

I kinda got a guilt trip from my mom so I cooled dinner.. I made green beans, rice pilaf and polish sausages it where awesome I may say so myself.. I was chatting with my mom about food and I was thinking about going vegetarian for a day not strict vegetarian ova lactate . I wanna see if I can do it.

This evening I went with mom to get her a new computer.. My cousin was suppose to repair hers and I think he made it worse that it was in the beginning.  I got new speakers because one of mine was broke. I know I am so boring if you read this I thank you so much..  I now have moms old flat screen.. I am finally moving up in the technological world I have a flat computer screen.

Summer is about over with the kids and we still haven't found anything to do that we all agree on doing.  The girls have been making bracelets out monkey breads. I have been drawing and I am thinking about making jewelry I have some light pink fresh water pearls that are unstrung I am gonna start with those and see how that goes.  I'm not necessarily thinking about selling it but if someone likes it I might.. I have sold a couple of my pieces of art.. I think I heard someone say once you sell a piece of your art you are officially an artist. Dunno !!
Going for now I am hoping tomorrow is much better.

Do I Over Exaggerate?

I do wonder that sometimes.. In some situations I don't know if I act correctly for the situation.  My child told me awhile ago she thought she was bi-sexual I didn't blow up over that I am one of the least homophobic people you will ever meet..I  have several gay  and lesbians in my family.. she is 16 now but then she was 13.. I told her that either she is straight or lesbian.. I have been told by family who are lesbian that when someone says they are bi they are either lesbian and afraid to admit it or just trying to fit in with crowd.  I told her that and then I told her I don't care what she is I love her no matter what.. then a few months after that she said she wasn't she wanted to see my reaction since she has bi sexual friends... OK now well with in the last few weeks I was been nosy and I'm really not on a normal basis. I was reading my child's text from some chick that lived in a different area code and they where saying I  love you and stuff like that.. I had a chat with her the next day I was mad not because of the text.. just because she could not  trust me enough to be honest with me anytime I have asked her before. I was fuming. She said I didn't want you to be mad that I like girls and boys.. That isn't true I love that child no matter what or who she chooses. I just totally freaked out when she lied.




Today I about broke down and cried.. it all started out my 2 daughters arguing accusing one another of calling each others names and hitting but both denying it.. I wasn't her I have no idea what is going on? I was trying to figure out away to resolve this problem.. and in my ear is my mom saying you need to make them apologize so I did and Sarah ruined that by licking Hannah on the face and Hannah pitched a fit.. she gets that from me, The lady my mom was friends with did that to me and I went psycho on her. So they where both mad so I wanted this situation to be over and done with I made the both of them look at one another and tell one another I am sorry and that what happened is done and in the past and stop bringing it up. I had the calm and everything was resolved.. My mom chimed in and did not think I handled the situation .. She thought in her own words to beat there ass.. I needed to do that everyday,, if they where her kids she would... She told me all I wanna do is be there friend... Here is what burns me up I know I am not perfect and I have spanked my kids in the past.. well that didn't work.. obviously what I did worked fine and all was well.. I don't try to be buddies with my kids I don't want to be like she was with my sister and I she never told us she loved us as kids she was hardly home she said she was working but that's not true all the time she was all ways bar hopping when we where little.. She always slapped us in the face because out rears would break blood vessels in her hands. I love my kids I tell them everyday I hug them and kiss them. When they act up I have no problem with being a parent and punishing my kids.. I know what works and what don't.. I honestly think my mom hates me and my kids if not it sure seems that way.

Updating Me

So far the summer has been pretty good.. I haven't got to do tons with the kids but it's still good.  Hannah has been busy, she is now at Camp for a week shewill be home Sunday,she has had choir tour and next up is Church Beach Retreat to Pananma City. I wish I could go hahaha.

Sarah dyed her hair purple but now it looks more fushia. My mom had a cow because I let her do that.. I have always told my kids they can pick there own hair sytles and stuff of that nature.. if they look like a fool its no one but there faults because thry picked there hair to be cut or dyed that way.. I knw there dad's mom has taken the when they where younger to have it cut and she always had it cut the way hers was at the time and the kids wouls come home in tears.. The reason I let them pick there own style is because when I has little my mom would keep my hair in a short afro because it was easier to fix.. I absolutely hated it .. I already had the naturally curly hair I hated she could have let my hair to be long or something. As soon as I had kids I swore never to do that to them.

We had our 1st Family reunion for the Jones family.. my cousin also made it for the dads side to so it was the Jones Echols family.. Eve and I was the only ones who ever had the name Jones there. it was kinda fun and nice to see family I don't see unless someone passes away.

Oh I had my computer cleaned out yesterday it runs faster.but now I can't get it online.. so, I am still using one of the kids lad top. I feel bad but there not here right now.. we still have over a moth before school starts back and I am hoping we can find something awesome to do I am still looking.. I know Sarah and I are gonna have Chinese one day since Hannah;s at camp and she'snot that crazy about it.  I hope Everyone is Having an amazing summer.. Bye

Gallbadder

Saturday June 4th 2011 morning I woke up at 9am I was feeling a little sick to my stomach felt kinda ill so I went back to sleep until noon I felt better so I ate, that was a mistake I felt like my whole abdominal and lower back and right side area was on fire.  Everyone wanted me to go to the hospital but I refused I have no medical insurance so I didn't wanna another bill to pay. My mom won and scared me into going to Cobb Hospital..The punctured me and proved me and x-rayed  .. I had Gall stones thats why I hurt all the time finally got an explanation. When they removed it they said it was full of stones. I do feel somewhat better the pain is gone just feel nauseated and bloated oh the heart burn is horrible. I am still healing and by next week everything will be back to normal. Also they tell me I have to lose weight (DUH)and watch my sugar it was high in the hospital. But its a wake up call and I am being more serious about losing weight,

Hannah Goes off to Choir Tour Today

I am totally being the nervous mom. This the longest amount of time Hannah has been away from me. I am most nervous because she will have a good amount of money with her I am so afraid she won't have it hid good enough and it will get stolen. I hope she behaves herself which she usually does around anyone other than her sister.

This year Sarah decided not to go on tour in a small way I am glad I spent over $100 buying little odds and ends she needed, For some reason Sarah just don't wanna do anything that involves church. I don't wanna make her. She isn't sure what religion she wants to be, Right now she and her sister attend there dads church he is methodist where I am Baptist. I really don't care what religion they are as long as they are happy in the choice they made for themselves. When I was married to my kids dad I tried going to his church it was different and confusing to what I am use to it wasn't me, and he was angry he always wanted me to join his church and I wouldn't. He call Sarah and ridiculed her for not going to tour he said she needed to sing the praises of the lord.. umm maybe so, but be is a Hippocrit he don't go to church.

Anyways back to the tour.. I hope Hannah enjoys herself and has a really good time.. she is luck she gets to go, there are a lot of kids who can't. I think it will be am amazing experience for her.

So Much Going On!!

I know I was gonna do another review on the new e-liquid, but I can proudly say I am totally without nicotine.
It's was a purpose decision. I picked a friend of mine up one morning to take him to dialysis and he has this habit of burping these nasty burps. as he was getting out of my car he burped and I caught a goos whiff and from that moment I started feeling nauseated I couldn't eat and when I tried using the ecig it made me sick. I was sick for over a week and never picked it back up.

There are ups and downs, I stopped hacking ,I do feel better.. What I hate is food taste different sometimes salty and I am sensitive to smell.I smell things I wouldn't have smelled before and wish I hadn't.

School is out I know the kids are so happy.. I just need to find some entertainment for them.. Hannah is set but Sarah on the other hand  is refusing to do anything with the church this year.  Hannah is leaving Thursday for her church choir tour. They are touring several area from here to Mount Rushmore they will be gone 10 days. Hannah has Vacation Bible School where she gets to teach 2nd graders. Beach Retreat is coming and so is Summer Camp at the end of the summer. But Sarah don't wanna go!

Speaking of Sarah she turned 16 last week. We had her party Sunday it was so much fun.. we have been having fun for the last few days. I love my kids they are good girls.

Until next time