Ego

My 13 year old daughter has suck a huge Ego!!! She thinks that she is so good playing her Double Bass that she never needs to practice. She never plays it when she brings it home to practice and when I take her to school early I found out today she's isn't practicing shes socializing.  What she don't understand is there is always someone better than you and practice makes you even better.  This is something I came to know yesterday afternoon!

I am glad she is confident but she is beyond confident! This weekend I have to buckle down on her,, she is suppose to practice at least 80 minutes a week. it sounds like a lot , but it really isn't 20 mins a day 4 days a week. I asked her if she wanted to continue with Orchestra, she said she did and I asked if she wanted to continue with GYSO she said she did.  I told her I would continue to take her if she would practice.. I don't want her wasting my time of there's . I hope my talk with her is heard and she starts being more serious and less cocky,

I have had a very good day!

I am actually really happy! I had a really great day. I didn't do anything special same routine as always. Hannah didn't go to school, she was throwing up most of the morning. I was just relaxed more. I love layed back where there is nothing pressing that needs to get done.  I did have a nap. I should have filled out a couple of applications, honestly I didn't think about not once.  We had a great dinner, I did some laundry, I made some jewelry and hung out with my daughters what more could I asked for.?

I have had somethings weighing on my mind, all to do with my sister and how she hurts out feelings about things.. she thinks she is staying out of thing but she just isn't very supportive when my mom or I are going through things with people.  1st of all Eve that's my biological only sister I have that is related by blood to me. Eve and her ex husband and his wife got into it I was really upset and mom was right there to take up for Eve when the ex's wife was acting a fool.   When it comes to us.. and someone is starting issues with us her response is I just don't want to get in the middle of it.  It hurts so bad. When Robin and I got into it and she was running her mouth, Robin decided to pull Eve into it.. All the was concerned about was why Robin is mad at her.. not how I was being treated. Eve even sends Robin a card months later and basically apologizes for something she didn't do.  The latest thing that happened with my step sister Wendy.  Wendy said horrible things to mom and Eve still said I don't wanna be put in the middle I was the only one who took up for mom. I was so pissed. I didn't expect Eve to take up for me, but her mom yes, Mom is way more important than keeping everything straight with Wendy.  I haven't said anything to her. I thought about writing her. I dunno. I know I wanna get this off my chest it is making me go insane.  Eve is hard to talk to. I have always had issues with her and never could stand up to her.. not that I am afraid of her more that she won't ever speak to me and I really love my sister.  I always thought I would be a made of honor at her wedding she has been married twice and I was never asked. The two girls she asked are hardly in her life where I have been there everyday. I dunno why it made me so upset?, but it did. I don't care anymore about that. I am still upset how I felt like she took away my best friend. They would go out I was never asked to go. If her kids wasn't with there dad mom or I was watching them. I am still mad about that . Ok my day was great and I don't want to make it bad by thinking of this stuff anymore. Goodnight it is 2:30 am and I have to be up in 3 hours. Until next time.

Teenage Drama

My 2 daughters have the same friend named Chelsea, she is 16 on of my oldest friends from school, she has grow attached herself to Hannah I think its because they have the same type of personality.  They are both very out going and make friends pretty easy. Every once in awhile Chelsea will spend the night and she tries to spend equal amount of time with the girls. They can't really handout together because my 2 girls  don't get along that often.  They always complain after she left that the other spent more time than the other one.  


This weekend was really horrible they fought almost the whole time over Chelsea. I thought I was gonna lose my mind.  I have never see anything like that.  It really upset Chelsea she felt like she was in the middle. I told the girls that if they didn't stop acting like this they will not let any of there friends come over anymore.. this is so ridiculous. 


Hannah went to church youth tonight after there rehearsals and when I picked her up she was upset apparently while she was there this girl Lauren was whispering loudly so Hannah could hear telling her friend not to like Hannah she'd ugly! I want to say something so bad, but  Hannah would rather just not go there.  I can't stand that kid in the 1st place.. Hannah knew her since pre-k and they where best buddies then. now she just don't like Hannah for no apparent reason!


Ok I am done for no Good night Until Next time.

To Date or Not to Date... ummmmm revised

This girl I grew up with left me a weird message saying "I'm gonna (loud clad) fix you up" My 1st thought was what the hell?  I love her like she is a sister and all but I don't know if I trust her choice of guys. I on't really know much about the type of guy she dates, I think out taste are totally different. Not that its bad I just don't know if she will pick someone I like, She then asked me if I was in love with an ex or looking for a rebound for someone who don't like me the way I liked them.  I told her the truth. I am open to date someone and I am not in love or have feelings for anyone. I dunno what to do. If I should take the chance. It could be the best thing or worse thing I ever did.  I hope she don't come across this and take it the wrong way cause I don't mean it in a bad way , just a bit shocked.

OK the second part of my day I went to Hannah's open house I really didn't wanna go but I did. It was alright!!! It was long I don't like the way it was conducted. We had to go to each class according to Hannah's schedule and had to stay in each class for 10 minutes.  Use to you could go to each class at you own pace. We where there 2 hour. 

Tomorrow is is my sorta busy day. Take my friend to the doctor and Hannah and Chelsea to church.  Thursday is Hannah's birthday she will be 13. Wow my baby is gonna be a teenager soooon. We  are going Thursday to get her 2 ND hole repierced.  And she wants to eat Steak and Shake for her Birthday, but we are doing that will be Saturday.  OK Till Next Time! Good Night!! 

Day 31 Drama Grrrr..

Of course my wrap up 31 day is dramatic!!  My step sister Wendy left my mom a rude comment about her new car.. something to the effect of Why did you get a new car my dad deserves it. That hurt moms feelings.  My dad called Wendy to see what was going on and my dad explained the situation. This morning she called to apologize  Poppy told her to call mom  and tell her.  She left a comment on Facebook saying can't people just take a joke. I asked was that comment to mom she is upset and crying over the situation and that is all I said in the beginning. She just totally went off on me. I was nice but as she kept on I got rude.  I am not ashamed what I said I was being honest while she was letting her true colors show. I don't need her it's not like she has been there.  I had to stop I could have went on and hurt her so bad, but she is not worth my time! 

Wendy deleted me as a friend, I just blocked her so she don't run the risk of her creeping on my page or messaging me or me getting mad again go off on her.. I am not dramatic.. she stoop down to her level. I  said what I said then blocked that is it all and I hope I never have to look at her snobby ass again!!!

Day 30

Hannah starts G.Y.S.O.  Sunday I haven't told her yet!! I think she will be so excited!! I have to remember to pick her up from school tomorrow to get her bass.  I have about all her paper work done I have to get Matt's 2 middle digits to his SS.. I know all of it but that.. I never use it anymore so I have no clue or have I cared.  I am having mom take me the 1st couple times to take Hannah to her practices so, I can figure out how to get there besides I am almost outta gas.

Hannah's Birthday stuff has changed. I think her dads mom is taking her Saturday to get her hair did.  I am taking her sometime after school on her birthday to get her cart ledge pierced.   On the Saturday after her birthday instead of a party she wants to eat at Steak and Shake and invite Chelsea.  I am thinking I will make some cup cakes too.  I gave one more day.. which I haven't really done 31 in a row since my computer still is down and using my child's Laptop. I will do it all over again around Christmas It will starting Dec1 I just hope I remember! Good night and Sweet Dreams!

Day 29

I love to be productive!! I know there arr some mornings I just wanna stay in bed and sleep all day and then I end up hurting because I slept way too long.  I didn't sleep well again I know what is new with me.. I think I finally went to bed at 7am or so and I got up a little after 10 am I had to Take Rick to his dialysis, After I dropped him off I went to my friend Robins. I really didn't wanna go  I was so tired.  I was really glad that I did go. She gave a bunch of clothes that was too small for her and we chatted. The clothes she gave me most where really beautiful, I had to was all them when I got home she smokes in her house and they all smelled strongly of smoke.

I can't complain I got to nap before I took Hannah to Church. Good things come to those who wait. I kinda wish I did nap I would most likely be in bed right now! I also got all Hannah's GYSO stuff filled out. Now I need to find the application, the address to the place and the check sent. I will feel like a huge weight is lifted off my chest


Hannah decided she didn't wanna birthday party.. she wants hair color . ok. I am taking her out to eat. She wants to go to Steak and Shake.. she wants a milk shake that's why.. its fine with me it saves me some money!!!! Good Morning or Evening what ever the case it!