Day 19

To day is my moms birthday! My sister and her family came down we ate at Pasta Bella..Not my favorite but it's hers. Nothing going on. Still having issues with my ankle, but it's getting better. Tomorrow I should be able tomorrow. Keeping my fingers crossed. Good Night! Till Tomorrow!

Day 18

I went to bed so late, later than normal.  I guess when I feel I pulled the area above inner knee. I put a hella lot of Icy Hot on it. I was fine until up to powder my nose for the 10th time it started burning sooooo bad. I thought I would have had a blister o my leg. I finally got so comfortable and hated getting up. at 8 am I just could nor handle the pain and grabbed Hannah's Laptop and looked up hoe to stop the pain since soap and water wasn't cutting it. I finally found relief on chacha.com They told me to mix a paste with baking soda and water and wash it off with milk. I did that, but I did ending up mixing the remaining of the milk to the baking soda and leaving it there longer. It felt so much better.

Today my ankle is killing me I have been trying to get up and walk on it or wiggle it around to keep it from getting stiff. Of course No walking today. I am hoping tomorrow evening it will be better. I am not giving up this time.. I just hit a bump in the road literally. Keeping my fingers crossed. Good Night yall!!

Day 17

Hannah and I walked the track again today!! I did sleep much better last night, my breathing was better.  Tonight I walked the same amount as yesterday,but after walking 1/2 a miles I dripped over a hole fell face down twisted my ankle skinned my knee and enjoyed some dirt.. I sat down on the bleachers and cleaned myself up, I got back off my feet and walk another lap. I wanted to do more, but my knee started burning and my ankle was throbbing so I stopped.. I still plan on going back tomorrow. We decided to walk 3 days and rest 1, but after awhile we'll switch it up and do 4 days rest 1. So happy I started walking!!
Goodnight and Sweet Dreams!

Day 16

I am late once again I am struggling right now with a headache. Grrrr! Hannah and I went to the track tonight. I just realized how out of shape I am in. I use to walk 3 miles with out getting tired. Tonight not even a mile. I figured well I stopped smoking back in February so my lungs should be better. Well NO  I have put on a bunch of weight so that has effected my lungs all that fat surrounding them. I was gasping for air I thought I was gonna pass out.  I sat down after lap 2 and walked another lap. As much as I hated it I must go back tomorrow. Wish me luck and no let my procrastination get the better of me again, because this is a vital step in my life I must lose some weight. Night all!  

Day 15

I am so Late so I will make this one short.  I have came up with a  conclusion on something I wanna do. I am thinking about making Jewelry. I have made one piece so far well 2 my mom and I  a very pretty firefly bracelet with sparkly beads. I have been using stretch cord for now.. it works really well with bracelets. After I make a few pieces I will post them for everyone to see.

Sort Sweet and 2 the point!! Night  

Day 14

I almost forgot to blog!!  I got busy watching Gene Simmons Family Jewel and really forgot about it.  By the way the ending was kinda weird... But expected it to end the way it did. I was watching the Food Network earlier I don't even know why.. I have had an upset stomach and food was the last thing on the brain.

Hannah has been begging me all day to go to Wal-Mart she want more beads. She is a good kid but when she wants something she will bug you until she gets it, I love that child she is something else.  I wanna get out and do something I have been in the house for weeks other that picking the kids up from somewhere or taking them some place or taking Richard to dialysis. I have basically been a recluse. Moms Birthday is on the 31 st I need to get her something., What? I have no clue? she isn't that easy to buy for.  I thought about taking her to lunch or something like that.  I will see what is going on. My friend Jimmy is taking her to see Dolly Pardon for her Birthday. I can't beat that and I wouldn't try because Jimmy is such a great friend to us all.


Nothing really going on the rest of this month. But August 11 is Wendy's 42 nd Birthday and on the 12Th Austin will be 10 and I think on the 15th my kiddies start school.  I know somewhere along the lines there are some meet and greets and all that fun school stuff I still haven't got them school supplies yet. I guess August will be my busy month.. I should have done this 31 day blog thing them.. Once school starts I hardly have time to breath or sit still.  Looking forward to it though. OK I made it before midnight. Goodnight Sleep Tight and don't Let the Bed Bugs Bite.

Day 13 Favorite Things

Here are a few of my favorite things in no order!

SANTA SLIPPERS

Love these they are so warm and comfy, I wear them all year around if my feet are cold I am wearing them.










Febrese set and refresh

Smells really good needs no plug in and sent last a good while













Skinny Water

Taste really good not expensive, I have been finding it lately for under $1 









Blackeyed Pea

Quick Trips Frozen Cappuccino

Tinker Bell

My most favorite Cartoon Character EVER!










Tattoos  well the one I have

Mine is similar but not exact I think mine looks better the Honey pot in laying down with dripping honey the pot say HUNNY and he is smiling













Bath and Body Works Twilight Woods

This is the best sent ever if you ever want to know what I smell like this is it..












Oreos

I don't eat junk that often, but these are my weakness.  I have to give them someone after I get a few or I will eat the whole bag before I noticed.












Lily of the Valley

These flowers are so beautiful just to look at the look unreal like something from a fairy tale. I don't think they are much of a give to someone flower even though brides love them in there bouquet.  If someone gibes me flower I love wild flowers. Roses aren't that pretty to me and there over rated. I am allergic to stargazers which I love

Day 12

I have been thinking a lot this weekend. I have been thinking on how I am going to accomplish some of the stuff  that I absolutely have to get done. In the morning I have to mail off all my bills so I can get help paying them.  I have all the copies made, I just need to know which is the right address to send them to.  I have to find a way to make a copy of Hannah's GYSO paper work and 25 dollar fee in. Sarah wasted all my ink in some anime stuff she was doing and mom don't know how to work her scanner printer.  Lucky I have until Aug 22 for that.. I also need  to have a talk to Hannah, if she does the GYSO she can't to Choir and tour with church.


This is some of the stuff I worry myself about daily.  It's worth it because most of it has to do with my kids and there futures.  


It's weird when someone wants to know about me and who I am .. It may not seem like to be easy, but it's not. I know myself pretty well and what I don't know I am still finding out.  I know I am more than a mother of 2 wonderful daughters.  I am more than a single mom with a weight problem, I know I am a great friend and an awesome listener.  I try to be kind and sensitive.. I am like everyone else I have my not so good moments and bad days.  I hate mornings and sleepless nights.  I love staying up late at night.. I can't stand working out.  I am a good catch, only if I want to be caught.  And as you can tell I am corny which is OK. 




I miss hanging around with my friends and chatting it has been so long.  It seems like we can't get our schedules together. Day 12 and I am kinda running out of things to say.. Like I said I am not always that interesting. I get lucky when things come up.  I promise to find some interesting topic's to chat about!  Until tomorrow.. Good Night!

Day 11 Drinking and Driving

Today is the 16th anniversary of the day my step sister Donnie Lynn was hit by a drunk driver and killed.  Before I tell the story the best I know how I will tell you about Donnie Lynne. Yes, she was my step sister not biological.. that never mattered she lived with us not her mom most of the time when we where kids, she didn't like my mom at all when her dad married my mom she wanted her mom and dad to get back together even though they been divorced years. Donnie gave my mom hell. The night Mom married my Poppy they had a party at t he house and dropped us off down the street at an arcade and plat games.. Donnie Lynne wasn't having that she was pissed off, She purposely or I believe it was purposely hurt herself in the parking lot so they would have to leave there party.  She ended up needing stitches in her knee.  For a year here and there she did stupid thingd. My mom and her dad whose name happens to be Donnie divorced mom had my brother Kenneth. Donnie Lynn got her wish her mom and dad got back together for close to a year,, see her mom is a gold digger she looks for the man with money in his pockets.. so she cheated and left Donnie one more time. In this time my mom did a stupid thing and married this man I hated.  They divorced before Kenneth turned 2 cause the dude couldn't keep it in his pants, 9 after there divorce he got re married. We moved back to my Paw Paws house after he passed away.. Donnie my Pops would come visit us all the time and come see mom while she was working, after a year we moved back in.

Donnie Lynne started liking my mom she realized she was better than her own mom and would listen to her. Donnie Lynn was a wild teenage always drinking and doing drugs. She stopped the drugs and drink a good bit she had even had some problems with drinking and driving wrecking her car.  She got was engaged they fought because they liked to drink. At this point she learned her lesson and drink at home she was tired of getting in trouble. She and Harold broke up she was going through some confusing things in her life. Actually my mom was helping her deal with and understand.. She was getting her life somewhat together she had miscarried and that kinda made her understand things in life.  The night the accident happened, she and a few of her friends stopped by my Pops Fire Station to visit since they where in Atlanta anyways.    About 4 to 6 hours later Donnie Lynn had gone across the street to call a cab. on her was back across the street she fell off the side walk and the 1st automobile hit her and kept going.. All any one know was it was either a dark blue or green SUV. The person was never found.. I believe someone said Donnie was trying to get up and another car hit her this girl stopped. That was the one that actually killed her. The girl got off with a slap on the wrist from the judge. I don't thin she even got a DUI.  I understand that Donnie was in the road she didn't see her, but she was still drunk.

I still think about her everyday.. I thought of her as one as my big sisters that a step sister her and Wendy both. it hurts she was only 23 years old when she died. She was so young and ready to do better in her life, but she was taken from us. I think she has left a little part of herself in us.. in out hears. We love you and miss you Donnie..... God Speed!!!!!!!!!!!! Please do me a favor PLEASE  DO NOT DRINK AND DRIVE!

Day 10 Random Talk

I was reading a comment someone posted something about making a Bucket List.  I have never thought about making a Bucket List. I have always just let life happen.  I can say not much life has been happening.  I have been reclusive to a point. I don't make an effort to do things.  I don't believe I am depressed or anything like that.  I stopped looking for love I don't try at all anymore. I feel like I have changed so much within the past 7 years, mentally as well as physically. I just stopped trying. 


I have stopped smoking which was something I thought to be impossible, I do have that to be proud of.  I don't think I look 37 buy I still see myself aging, that enough to freak someone out.  I have put on a good amount of weight I don't like the way I feel. I know I need to lose a lot of weight.  Dating I sort of keep from it, its hard to find someone who will except me the way I look weight wise.. I don't think I am ugly, just look better with less weight on me.  I would love find someone and fall in love someday. I just don't know when or if it will happen I would like to fall in love.  Sometimes I feel like I purposely gain weight or don't dress up anymore or even put on make up as often, maybe I am trying to keep love away.. I 'm not doing it purposely. 




Moving on..... I kinda don't know what to say just one of those weeks that I have been stuck at home not feeling well.. I think I am a little bit better today.  I'll be happy if I cam just sleep through the night. That would make me so happy!!  Good Night Until Tomorrow. Sorry about  rambling.

Day 9

What are somethings you don't talk to your friends about? I never talk politic with my friends, I have learned by listening to my friend argue with another on of my friends about political issues and it never ends up pretty.  I am undecided in that department.  I have friends who are self acclaimed Anarchist , I also have friends who are Republican , Democrat, some are conservative and libertarians I don't really care what they are as long as they have my back when I need them.

I get aggravated about people who don't like someone because of there race or religious beliefs.  Do you wanna know what really angers me? When someone judges some because of what they eat. This has been something new I have came across lately. Some Vegetarian's and Vegans  seriously feel that way about meat eaters. We are all murders because we eat meat.  I honestly would love to be a vegetarian I am not much of a meat eater and its not because its a living thing its because I don' like it.  But I do love eggs and mild so if I do become a vegetarian I'd be classified as a ova lactate .. I think that'r right.  I live back at home with my parents and I can't afford to buy food to feel different peoples needs. Its also expensive to be Vegetarian. Once I learn to do it on the cheap I will. But as I was saying I have heard people yelling and screaming about the process of killing the cattle .. I know this my grand parents lived on a farm, yes it sucks to see a chicken be killed. You have to eat what you can when you are poor.  95% of what I eat meals for the day don't contain meat. Usually at dinner time. I am not evil because I eat meat I promise I am one of best people that you would get to know.  I never judge anyone for what they look like what they wear or who they date.  The only thing I worry about of judge are drunk drivers I lost a sister she was 23 to a hit and run most likely they were drinking, Anyone who beats a child or another adult and Rape.

I am glad I grew up the way I did.  I grew up around lesbians and gay men all my life. It always seemed normal to me.. until at a friends house and she was yelling at my cousin Rogers a faggot. I was so made and upset to hear that. I went to an elementary school with many Africa American's.  I have never been attracted to anyone out of my race, and I don't have problems with interracial couples. I am glad I was taught not to judge a book by it's cover.     I am quiet and shy around people I haven't see in awhile or don't know I have been thought of as stuck up or snobby but far from it. I love you all until I have reason other wise. As long as you treat me good I will do the same and I will never betray your friendship remember that.

Goodnight, See ya tomorrow as promised !

Day 8 Pain

I don't know why but I have been hurting really bad.  Kinda in the same place and same pain I had before I got my Gall Bladder removed.. The thing is I no longer have a Gall Bladder. I hurt when I breath in it kinda burns, my mid lower back hurts.  I hope it has something to do with the weather I can't stand this and I don't wanna go to the hospital again.. I hope it will pass.


I have laundry to get done Hannah leaves for Florida Friday.. I think they will be home by Monday.  I know she is excited.  I hope she enjoy's herself. I wish I could go to the Beach I haven't been since I graduated high school.

Sorry this is so short.. I really don't feel good and can't think about anything to say.. I hope everyone has a great night I will see ya tomorrow GOOD NIGHT !

Haunted local places I talked about in my blogg

Inside The Covered Bridge Concord Rd Smyrna GA

Outside the Bridge

Marietta GA Mary and her Babies

I can't find the ghost picture I took still looking will post when I get it.

Day 7 Paranormal?

I know there are many many skeptics when it comes to this subject.. I don't mind them as  long as there not an ass about it and make those of us who do believe feel stupid.  The reason I am even blogging about this is.. I have been seeing a lot of Youtube video and T.V. shows talking about and thought it might make for an interesting topic. 


I have been told ghost stories all my life, by my uncle.. these stories where past on from my Grandmother and Great Grandmother.  I can't really tell all of the stories it has been awhile  since I have last heard them.  All I remember is something about a piano playing by itself, shoes walking down the stairs,baby crying that was sleeping, and cabinets opening.  My Uncle would tell use these stories on the way home from church Sunday and Wednesday nights.  


Have you noticed as well that most city or your home town has there own stories.. The city I live in has the Covered Bridge Ghost.. I have never tried this but the story is if you buy a candy bar open it up either out it on your bumper or trunk , turn off your headlights and drive slowly under the bridge the candy will be gone. We have the Witches Graveyard a witch supposedly killed slaves people who ever and buried them in her yard.     Also In Marietta Ga 5 miles from my house is a Grave Yard that has a statue of a woman holding 2 babies in her arms.  I think she and her children where killed.. or maybe she killed them I dunno, they say if you walk around the statue 3 times saying ''Mary, Mary where's your babies buried her eyes light up and she talks.'' Not really good with the stories. 


I never had not one experience until I was older. They say kids are the ones who are acceptable to this than adults.  I lives in this apartment with my ex boyfriend and it always felt weird like I was being watch.. I told Johnny I think he thought I was nuts.  I think a week after that he was getting ready for work and using the bathroom and hear someone running down the hall way. He said he got up really quick and looked all through the apartment and everyone was sleeping. He didn't tell me for 2 or 3 weeks later, because he didn't want to freak me out.  After we moved out of the apartment we moved to a duplex and I felt fine there for a long time... I had quit my job and was home alone a lot, I was watching TV there was no heat or air on the doors where closed.. all of sudden my blinds looked as if someone put their finger in the blinds and went up and down.. you know how you do to adjust the blinds just like that but no one was there.  We had stuff fly off the fire place, I saw a shadow standing in my closet.. I wonder to this day if it had anything with Johnny's dads ashes we had.  Here at my mom and dad's it don't seem too active. I caught something on my cell phone.. I will post it as soon as I  can find it.  Nothing moves her.. Things in my room fall for no reason and I mainly feel eyes on me mostly when I sleep. Kind of creepy but it don't scare me anymore.  Anyone have creepy stories let me know. Good Night Until Tomorrow!

Day 6 Random life death and Remembering

I found out last night my cousin Tony passed away. He has had heart issues for sometime and went to the hospital to have a pacemaker put in and while they had him in an a coma he passed away. Tony was only 37 years old and would have turned 38 in September. It is frightening knowing he is my age and that happened.. I often take like for granted I take my life for granted I forget that at any second I could be gone.

I haven't talked to Tony other than on Facebook in many years .. was working for a company roofing my house, He started flirting with my sister Eve, He had no clue at the time who she was.. she came in my room and said that some guy on the roof won't stop flirting with her. I went outside and looked up .. it was Tony. He probably felt stupid. When Tony and I was little we played together all the time. After my mom and Sperm Donor divorced we really didn't see one another anymore. 7 years after that I was in 3rd grade and I had this huge cruse on the guy in my homeroom I just thought he was the cutest guy I ever seen,, I was at home one night and on my step dads type writer I wrote hundreds of times.. I Love Tony Tindle.. My mom saw it I was embarrassed she was laughing, she said this Tony Tindle you love so much is you cousin. My world fell apart that day.. But that did bring us closer when we where in school together. After he moved I didn't see him until he was roofing my house. We tried to contact him on face book to go have coffee with him, it just never got a chance to Happen. The funny thing is.. I went to his Facebook page Thursday or Friday and told him I love and miss him.

I will miss him knowing I will never get to see him again it hurts to know that. Please everyone keep him and his family in your thoughts. Until Tomorrow I will see you then. Goodbye and Goodnight!!

Day 5 Sexting

I think I may have talked about this before? If I have I am sorry if I have.. I am having issues with it again.  My 12 year old daughter is sooooo boy crazy and of course she's not allowed to date and the only guy other than family I will let her hang out with is her gay Asian best friend better known to us as Hannah's Gaysian. She seems to meed gay online usually Gaia , she gives these guys her cell number  and 2 has talked her in to sexting with them. I dunno why she keeps doing this I catch her every time. I caught her twice Sexting with one boy and once with this guy from the other day.. She always says I just wasn't thinking straight ......well obviously not.  I  hated reading what he was posting to her.. she didn't say too much just ooh and ahh still yuck.  I have talked to her about this and tried to make her understand she is too young to be doing this. When I was 12 I just stopped playing with Barbie.  I also told her that is these boys has any respect or liked her they would never try to talk her into that. I try to remind her you are 12 you have plenty of time for that when you are older, be 12 and do 12 year old things, and stop talking to older perverted boys. 


I had to take away the computer and phone.  I told once or even if I decide to give her this stuff back she needs to delete the Gaia account and be supervised. I hope I did everything if it was up to the rest of my family I simply would just beat the hell out her everyday,  Sorry that don't work people.

Buckcherry - Crazy Bit*h (Video)

Day 4 Relationships

I follow someone on blogger as well as youtube who is having a really bad issues with an ex girlfriend who he still   loved enough to keep them in his life because he still loved this girl.. Now things are going out of control.  I feel sorry for this guy. I know how much it hurts to go through crazy situations.  You have to take a gamble on love you don't know what you are getting in a new relationship, its a gamble.

I have been single I think it has been 7 years I have dated some, but never anything serious ever came out of any of them.  I just have bad luck with me.. I get the one who wanna cheat or just have no clue what they want.  I was married for a few year.  I got 2 amazing children from that marriage. My ex husband would mentally abuse me. He yelled called me names, he loved starting arrangement's so he could leave to see his mistress. That was the only relationship I have ever been in that I felt psycho and not myself at all. I knew what he was doing, I would sit on his car so he wouldn't leave. We fought so bad the police would come out to our house regularly.  I was never myself when we where together.  I left him when Sarah was 2, but got back together with him everything was great for a year the I got pregnant and had some issues with my pregnancy and had to quit he started cheating and being controlling I finally left for good. The last relationship was pretty good we just kinds grew apart from each other and I wondered there at the end if he had sex with his ex when he went to pick his daughter up for the summer. Still not sure it don't matter anymore. I can say he never hit me or made me question my mental stability. We didn't talk for year he was mad that I would sign  my truck over to him.. I told him I would if he helped me move,, he did for a day but always made excuses so I told him to bring me my keys.

I think I am happy being single there is no drama or weird emotional trips. I spend all my time mostly with them. I am happy I am able to focus on them.  I might find someone I wanna be with one day but right now I am fine where I am. I have grown up a lot I think I will be better in relationships now I have had the time to analyze the ones I have been in all my mistakes and theirs as well.  I am not perfect to one is but we all should know where to draw the line between knowing  if your in a good or a bad relationship. Until Tomorrow have a Great day and an Awesome evening.

Day 3 Better late than Never

Just realized it was after midnight.. I got caught up in what I was watching. Awesomely boring day!!! For some reason Hannah went to bed really early I haven't figured out why/ I think it was 7 pm.  


Getting a bit bored . No one is posting many videos on Youtube. I don't do videos I have nothing to say.  But I love learning about people and there lives.  I wish I had 1/2 an ounce of talent as these people do.  Taking about talent, I didn't realize how talented Hannah my youngest is. My mom and I was reading the email for her acceptance  in the GYSO . they had auditioned several thousand kids and only about 100 kids make it they consider these kids Genius. The thing is when we took her to the audition she never really practiced, she was upset because her bass sounded out of tune and she left her tuner at school and on top of it all she changed her music at the last minute. I am very proud of her... I would felt the same if she didn't make it because at least she tried. 


I has a little dispute about 3 weeks ago .Well it wasn't mine I just got brought in it.. My mom made a comment on facebook about my real dad and the fact he wasn't showing up at the Jones family reunion. My dads girlfriends daughter in law started nosing in there business and dissing my mom.. So my mom said well you need to tell your husband to stop hitting on my daughter, Betty the girl said my husband wouldn't do anything like that and my mom told her I had proof she was mad and blocked me, mom and Eve.  GEEEEZ . Her husband id creepy I wouldn't touch him with a 10 ft pole he never hardly takes a bath, I am just not attracted to him, she has nothing to worry about.   I think she believes I am some sort of dumb ass.. Actually what I am lacking in book smarts I have tons of common sense.  I went in to m y 16 year old's facebook and wrote her a message basically saying she was a coward.. She needed to talk to me before she blocked me. I told her just knows the truth and she just don't you wanna admit it and then I told her that  keep her nose out of my mom and dads business it has nothing to do with it its between the two of them and only them..
I just want all this to go away I don't care if she likes me or not, she is always at my family stuff on the mountain and we are bound to see one another..We all need to get along.


I still haven't colored my hair, I might do that before I go to bed.. At least the roots.I am sorry to grump and grouch just tell you how it is and to fill my day 3 of blogging. Until tomorrow Good Night and Sweet Dreams.

Day 2

Emma

I am gonna try out something new with my hair I just hope it don't fall out when I am done.. I was gonna start on it tonight but feeling a little lazy right and I don't feel like hearing complaining about hair color in the tub when its not there.  I am 1st gonna color my roots like the rest of my hair.. past time to was the grey out of my hair. The a day or 2 later I am gonna color over it with a red that washes out in so many shampoos.  I hope it turns out.. I also have a protein conditioner I don't know if I should use it before or after I put the red in.

Pride and Prejudiced

Sarah s friend Chelsea spent the night 3 nights mom took her home this after noon and now Heather is over spending the night. I feel bad I haven't let any of Hannah's friends in awhile. Her friends are a bit louder than Sarah's except Chelsea she is Hannah's friend as well and when they are together OMG! they are so loud. I have basically been hanging out in my room for the past couple hours. I just finished watching The Roommate it was OK.. very similar to Single White Female but the girls are in College.  I haven't really seen any super good movies in awhile at least new ones ,, Last weekend I watched Emma I love that movie, Next I wanna see Little Woman. I love movies like that.  The weekend before I watched Pride and Prejudiced. I am a movie nerd I know.
I have watch these among others hundreds of times and still not tired of them.  I always try to get ma daughter to watch them with me but they are only 1/2 interested .

Off to bed soon trip to the dialysis in the morning well to drop Rick off any ways.. I pray I sleep better. I pray I don't wake with such a dry mouth I feel as if I have been eating sand paper or something, Good night to all Sweet Dreams Just think tomorrow is Friday Until them .

Little Woman

                                                                                 

I wanna try to post Everyday for 1 month Day 1 still the 13Th to me

What to blog about I really don't know my life is what it is funny some-days dramatic the next or just boring just like everyone else. Today was pretty uneventful. I woke up this morning at 10:30 am and literally rolled out of bed throw on some clothes on and took my friend Rick to his dialysis appointment.. I  felt like death. I can't blame anyone but myself for the way I felt. Knowing I had to get up I  still stayed awake until 5 am chatting with the kids and my brother.  I was happy to get home I was starving and made an egg, bacon and cheese bagel then I crashed until 2:30 pm I am such a lazy ass.

I kinda got a guilt trip from my mom so I cooled dinner.. I made green beans, rice pilaf and polish sausages it where awesome I may say so myself.. I was chatting with my mom about food and I was thinking about going vegetarian for a day not strict vegetarian ova lactate . I wanna see if I can do it.

This evening I went with mom to get her a new computer.. My cousin was suppose to repair hers and I think he made it worse that it was in the beginning.  I got new speakers because one of mine was broke. I know I am so boring if you read this I thank you so much..  I now have moms old flat screen.. I am finally moving up in the technological world I have a flat computer screen.

Summer is about over with the kids and we still haven't found anything to do that we all agree on doing.  The girls have been making bracelets out monkey breads. I have been drawing and I am thinking about making jewelry I have some light pink fresh water pearls that are unstrung I am gonna start with those and see how that goes.  I'm not necessarily thinking about selling it but if someone likes it I might.. I have sold a couple of my pieces of art.. I think I heard someone say once you sell a piece of your art you are officially an artist. Dunno !!
Going for now I am hoping tomorrow is much better.

Do I Over Exaggerate?

I do wonder that sometimes.. In some situations I don't know if I act correctly for the situation.  My child told me awhile ago she thought she was bi-sexual I didn't blow up over that I am one of the least homophobic people you will ever meet..I  have several gay  and lesbians in my family.. she is 16 now but then she was 13.. I told her that either she is straight or lesbian.. I have been told by family who are lesbian that when someone says they are bi they are either lesbian and afraid to admit it or just trying to fit in with crowd.  I told her that and then I told her I don't care what she is I love her no matter what.. then a few months after that she said she wasn't she wanted to see my reaction since she has bi sexual friends... OK now well with in the last few weeks I was been nosy and I'm really not on a normal basis. I was reading my child's text from some chick that lived in a different area code and they where saying I  love you and stuff like that.. I had a chat with her the next day I was mad not because of the text.. just because she could not  trust me enough to be honest with me anytime I have asked her before. I was fuming. She said I didn't want you to be mad that I like girls and boys.. That isn't true I love that child no matter what or who she chooses. I just totally freaked out when she lied.




Today I about broke down and cried.. it all started out my 2 daughters arguing accusing one another of calling each others names and hitting but both denying it.. I wasn't her I have no idea what is going on? I was trying to figure out away to resolve this problem.. and in my ear is my mom saying you need to make them apologize so I did and Sarah ruined that by licking Hannah on the face and Hannah pitched a fit.. she gets that from me, The lady my mom was friends with did that to me and I went psycho on her. So they where both mad so I wanted this situation to be over and done with I made the both of them look at one another and tell one another I am sorry and that what happened is done and in the past and stop bringing it up. I had the calm and everything was resolved.. My mom chimed in and did not think I handled the situation .. She thought in her own words to beat there ass.. I needed to do that everyday,, if they where her kids she would... She told me all I wanna do is be there friend... Here is what burns me up I know I am not perfect and I have spanked my kids in the past.. well that didn't work.. obviously what I did worked fine and all was well.. I don't try to be buddies with my kids I don't want to be like she was with my sister and I she never told us she loved us as kids she was hardly home she said she was working but that's not true all the time she was all ways bar hopping when we where little.. She always slapped us in the face because out rears would break blood vessels in her hands. I love my kids I tell them everyday I hug them and kiss them. When they act up I have no problem with being a parent and punishing my kids.. I know what works and what don't.. I honestly think my mom hates me and my kids if not it sure seems that way.

Updating Me

So far the summer has been pretty good.. I haven't got to do tons with the kids but it's still good.  Hannah has been busy, she is now at Camp for a week shewill be home Sunday,she has had choir tour and next up is Church Beach Retreat to Pananma City. I wish I could go hahaha.

Sarah dyed her hair purple but now it looks more fushia. My mom had a cow because I let her do that.. I have always told my kids they can pick there own hair sytles and stuff of that nature.. if they look like a fool its no one but there faults because thry picked there hair to be cut or dyed that way.. I knw there dad's mom has taken the when they where younger to have it cut and she always had it cut the way hers was at the time and the kids wouls come home in tears.. The reason I let them pick there own style is because when I has little my mom would keep my hair in a short afro because it was easier to fix.. I absolutely hated it .. I already had the naturally curly hair I hated she could have let my hair to be long or something. As soon as I had kids I swore never to do that to them.

We had our 1st Family reunion for the Jones family.. my cousin also made it for the dads side to so it was the Jones Echols family.. Eve and I was the only ones who ever had the name Jones there. it was kinda fun and nice to see family I don't see unless someone passes away.

Oh I had my computer cleaned out yesterday it runs faster.but now I can't get it online.. so, I am still using one of the kids lad top. I feel bad but there not here right now.. we still have over a moth before school starts back and I am hoping we can find something awesome to do I am still looking.. I know Sarah and I are gonna have Chinese one day since Hannah;s at camp and she'snot that crazy about it.  I hope Everyone is Having an amazing summer.. Bye